I wanted to tell you how much it meant that you would take time out of your day to come talk to us, to me. I can’t fathom how hard that is for you to talk about because I have no kids of my own. I do want you to know that you coming in and talking about losing your son moved me unlike anything else in Choices because I felt I was sitting in, listening to my Daddy talk about me overdosing, and that is a feeling I still can’t shake. I always thought my Dad was being so tough on me because he didn’t understand heroin addiction, and I tried to explain time and again why it was so hard to get clean. I never tried or cared to see what I was putting him through though, or how badly he wanted to help but couldn’t because I really didn’t want it. Because of my addiction to heroin I haven’t been close to my Dad for some years now, and we don’t really say much either. After hearing about your son I called home and talked to my Daddy. I told him about you, how the way you spoke, the things you said, everything reminded me of him and how I was sorry, which I know doesn’t mean much while I’m in here, but I would show him. I also told him how much I missed being in a close relationship with him. He sat there for a minute and I figured he was coming up with some sly remark to make, when I realized he was crying. You had told me my Daddy still loved me and I could mend the relationship, and I hoped you were right, but I thought I’ve made such a mess of things and caused too much heartache to have my Daddy back. So when he said he missed having a relationship with me and he wants me to stay clean so he can have that I was floored. I never would have even attempted to talk to him about any of this had it not been for you coming to speak. I know God sent you, and I thank Him nightly. I am very, very sorry you lost your son. I wish I could mend your broken heart. That is why I felt it was so important for you to know how much of an impact you have had on me, and I think about your talk daily. I cannot begin to thank you enough for having the strength and will to share your story with us. My life will not be the same since hearing you, and for that I am eternally grateful.
First of all I’d like to thank you for coming and sharing your story with all of us. It made me think about a lot of things in my life. My drug of choice is unfortunately heroin. I’ve used for almost 5 years and was shooting 4 of those 5 years. I found myself doing things I would never have thought I’d do. Stealing and lying to friends and family. I have diabetes and using heroin caused me to have lots of complications with it and was hospitalized at least once every couple of months for 4 years until I got locked up. I was selfish and thought that no one cared about me and continued to use. After being here for almost 3 months my head has cleared and I realized I was wrong. My Mom has passed and all I have left is my Dad. And I don’t want to put my Dad through the pain you are going through. Don’t for one minute think that it was your fault because it isn’t. It was the addictions. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Just remember that your son will always be with you in your life as long as you keep his memories alive. Time will heal a broken heart. Thanks again for talking to us. It made me think twice about ever using again. Take care and keep your head up.
Choices Fall 2011
My name is Bradley Evans. I wanted you to know that you affected my life. I think your story impacted a lot of us. But if it didn’t you affected me greatly. When I see the love you have for your son, it makes me think of my mom and son. I don’t want them to go through the same grief that you are going through. I can relate to your son. I am 24 and I have been using heroin for 5 years. I lost everything. My girl and son left me. I was so depressed I couldn’t handle it. When I did heroin my emotions and thoughts were numb. I didn’t have to deal with anything. Heroin was my new love. I was a very selfish person. My mom would cry and I didn’t care. I thought I could handle it…I didn’t want to get clean and nobody would be able to stop me. If I would have not have gone to jail I would have never seen how sunny the other side of the road is. If I would have gotten out without Choices I would be on the same track as I was when I came in here. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your story. It took a lot of strength and courage to do what you did. Thank you.
Much Love and Respect,